Carrie Underwood Recalls Her Conversation with God After Suffering Three Miscarriages

Carrie Underwood; Photo by Mike Coppola/Getty Images for CMT
Carrie Underwood; Photo by Mike Coppola/Getty Images for CMT
Carrie Underwood; Photo by Mike Coppola/Getty Images for CMT
"Okay, I’m kind of giving up a little bit..."

Carrie Underwood is on top of the world. She recently continued her reign as the most-awarded artist in CMT Music Awards history, she’s in the midst of a massive headlining tour, her summertime smash, “Southbound,” is making its way up the charts and she has a loving husband and two beautiful sons traveling the road with her.

While her life couldn’t be more ideal at the moment, nearly two years ago, she faced a difficult time when she not only suffered substantial injuries after taking a fall outside of her home, she also experienced three miscarriages in less than two years.

The superstar opens up about her struggles conceiving, her family life and her faith in the latest issue of People.

“I put a lot of stress on myself — I feel like a lot of moms do, a lot of women do,” she admits to the publication, insisting, “the best moments in my life are when I say, ‘Hey, I can’t control everything, and that’s okay. God is in control.’”

After three unsuccessful pregnancies, Underwood was beginning to question everything.

“Of course you wonder if it’s you, what am I doing wrong, or what have I done wrong,” she says. “I remember having conversations with Mike trying to make sense of it all.”

As she tried to grapple with what was happening, she turned to God for guidance.

“I’ve always wanted to be a good daughter to my parents but also to God and not complain, because we are beyond blessed,” she shares. “I get to do what I love, I have an incredible family. I have Mike, I have Isaiah, I have great parents. I have all of these amazing people around me, and I don’t want to complain, ever.”

She adds, “But the miscarriages made me get real with God and say, ‘Okay, I’m kind of giving up a little bit. If this isn’t meant to happen, then I need to accept that and know that someday I’ll understand why.’”

Not too long after her heart-to-heart with the man upstairs, she and Mike received the news that she was pregnant. “We heard that everything was okay and I was pregnant with Jacob,” the singer reveals. “He’s just this perfect little bundle of a smiley guy.”

Jacob arrived in January and Underwood’s Cry Pretty 360 Tour kicked off on May 1. Rather than leave her boys at home, Underwood is bringing them along for the coast-to-coast trek. While she admits it’s a “big awesome mess,” she’s loving every minute of it.

“There is a thing about motherhood that makes you feel like, ‘Okay, if I can do that, I can do anything,’” she says. “And I feel like I’m a little older, a little wiser. This isn’t my first rodeo.”

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